Monday, 9 July 2007 – I met with one of the clients I had before I went to California. I don’t know how to share about it. So this entry will be short. He has been moving forward in his healing process while I was away. That makes me happy, because it shows me that he wants to change and he can work on it without me.

Tuesday, 10 July 2007 – We went to the men’s rehab center. I taught on codependency. The first half was very difficult. I thought that I was not reaching them. They were looking back at me like they were bored out of their minds. I was fighting with myself. I wanted to cut the teaching short and do something else. But I’m glad that I did not give in to my insecurity. When I gave them an excise to do, as they started to share I understand why they had this blank look on their faces. I was stocked. The look they were giving me was, because God was working on their hearts. As they shared they talked about how they noticed that they were codependent or knew someone close to them who was codependent. As they dealt with the reality of the matter, there was one guy who went right into denial. He noticed that he was codependent, but he rationalized his actions. He stated how they were not wrong. He could not understand how what I was talking about was a problem. He figured it was how it ought to be. He was doing it all out of love. There is nothing wrong with that! He became indigent. I figure that he needs to think through everything he heard and give himself time to review his notes without putting up any defenses. I pray that God will allow him to see the situation clearly so that he can receive healing from this addiction.

That evening – We went to the moms’ group were mothers meet weekly for support for dealing with the addictions of their children and/or husbands. I taught this time around on the some topic I finished up in the morning, codependency. This time I taught it all in one sitting, about an hour and a half with translation. What a difficult time the mothers had. It was easily seen on each of their faces from the leader to the new comer. God was giving them some things to think about. I wanted to cry as I was teaching, because seeing their pain reminded me of the process God is taking me through as he heals me from this addiction.
The highlight for me was when one young mother who is married to a drug addict understood that what she was doing was not helping and if she started working on her own issues like codependency only then can the situation she is in get better. You know that this is a big revelation. She has reached the halfway point in her recover. I pray that God will continue to give her revelation so that she will go the rest of the journey to wholeness in this area of her life. This will help her and possibly save her husband.

Wednesday, 11 July 2007 - We went to the day rehab center. Sergey continued his teaching on addiction. There were less people there on this day, but what was good was that on of the mothers come to hear about addiction. Sergey summarized what he talked about for diving in to what he prepared. This was good for the mother to feel part of what was being talked about. It was important for her to be up to par, because she is new to the group and she keeps saying that she has no problems, denial – big time. She said that she learned some new things and that it challenged her. I believe that she walked away with a better understand of her husband’s, her son’s and her own addictions. I pray that she will be able to explore her feelings and look at her pain. Before she left, she shared how she is struggling with a new thing – food. She has taken on a new addiction, because she has not gotten down to the core of her problem. Until she avoids looking at the underlying roots, she will continue to add to her addictions.

That evening – I meet with a new client with Sergey. Wow! This is one that I will be asking questions of my supervisor on help to best proceed. He has one major problem with a few underlying ones. He scares me, because it seems to be at the edge and could snap. I see how delicate and vulnerable he is and I want to work with cause. God give us wisdom as we work with him and help him turn to you for healing.